deepest convictions.

Without any sighs...

She's feeling... unwell, unrested, unstable. She can't pinpoint it, she can't understand what's making her feel this way, she doesn't know what to do. She wonders if she's just going mad with scenarios, playing stupid little games amongst that pretty head of hers. She's trying to understand, she's trying to learn the difference between reality and the silly and crazy things that she invents. She wants it to just go away, a solution that seems to solve nothing. She can't even distinguish between the horrible lies and peaceful truths. She's a mess.

Unpredicted outbreaks...

It seems she's going backwards. After all this time, she's moved so far away from this kind of situation to only running right into it again. History repeats itself in the most unexpected ways. A few missing pieces and that's all it needs for everything to feel like a threat to her. She is threatened way too easily but she's only trying to protect herself. She's not even sure what she is protecting about herself. All she knows is that this, whatever the exact thing is, makes her doubt.

Convinced changes...

It seems that once again, she needs to become a person who won't be fazed from the words that should mean little and make sure that when history has a second chance she won't fall without a word into such a trap. She will prepare herself without the hatred that existed before, without the self-doubts and without the excuses. She will not be defeated this time.

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