consuming love.

A year gone by... with many mistakes...
A year ahead... with hopes and dreams...  

1.
Finding herself in all the mess that consumes her. What her goals are for life, her life and not the life that is painted onto her deceiving eyes.  

2.
Happiness; in any shape, in any form, in anyway.  

3.
Him; the promise of more passion, desire, want, need... forever...   

4.
Love; the answers, the understandings, the findings of it.  

5.
Whether love has finally consumed her...  

2006...
This is her...

the new her...

in the new year...  

thirty-seventh month.

37th month...

He took me out to dinner.

Two hours of just me and him.

Great food, wonderful company and a beautiful dinner.

Followed by passion, desire, want, need...

All those wonderful things.

Kisses that made tips of my toes tingle.

Hugs that embraced me.

Words of beauty whispered into my ear.

He is my teddy bear, in every way.

Happy anniversary...

invoked by him.

Three years past...

Has taken me by and its only you that has made it all worthwhile.

I'd tired of weighing the good and the bad.

I'm sick of being quiet.

I want the world to know.

I'm falling so fast for you that no one can stop me now.

So hug me, kiss me, have me.

Because life with you is all that I need.

Three years on...

My heart has run away with my mind...

He has made it jump endlessly...

Too many words, too many feelings...

All invoked by him...

feisty grace.

Feisty grace...
 
Kisses that sweep her into unknown depths; hugs that covered her from head to toe; sexy looks of want, have, need; intoxicating scent that entraps her. Those are the distractions that drew in all her attraction to him. Still to this very day...

Sultry mystery...
 
First glances are always right; first kisses don't lie; first touch is just a tease; first confessions are full of nerves. After that... the mystery stays on. Like the way he finds things that make her laugh even after so long; the tingles of a touch that has been done over and over; the desire in his eyes that never seems to fade; the words he whispers in her ear in the darkness that makes her blush like a little girl.

Elfin allure...
 
Hold her tight every chance that you can; bruise her lips with every kiss; protect her in every hug; satisfy her every passion. That's all it takes for her. Romance her.

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inspired by && written for:

all hopeless romantics...

&& heart me ...

Breathe quietly...

Hold my heart...

Hear it beat...

For you...

Trust me...

As I will trust you...

Don't betray me...

I never will...

Hold on to us tight...

Don't let it go...

Can we make it through...

Together and apart...

Now and forever...

With and without the kisses...

The hugs...

The meaningless gestures...

The laughing secretly together...

Or even just the desire...

To simply sit together...

Gamble away comfort...

Enter uncharted territories...

Let us make the rules...

The rights and the wrongs...

I want to win...

In my heart...

You are for me...

I hope...

You feel that way about me...

Can we make it happen...

Can we we get stronger...

Can you see me with all that sexy appeal...

Can you make me a special place in your life...

Uncharted territories...

Beyond hope...

Coin toss...

Fate's destiny...

Us...

give... took... have...

Give me...
 

An hour, a day, a year and a whole lifetime. Needing the time to think it through to breathe it in, to sort it out. If it were so simple I would take this minute and give you all that you want, all the answers, all the comfort that I could possibly give you... in this minute. But I need the space to figure out what went wrong, what made me think the things that never before entered into my mind. Give me that.. can you?

You took...
 

A piece of trust, a dash of hate and a heart full of hope. I want that back just as much as you want me to have it back... if only it were that simple... I placed too much on one uncertainty in my life. So stupid, so childish, so unlike me. But that's what you do. You look at me and I wonder what life is without you and I fall, so deep, so fast that I find myself unable to get myself out of it without you. I will not let it happen again... not in my lifetime... not from you.

Have it...
 

The life you want, no attachments, no us. That feels like what you want, what you feel is your life. I cannot guarantee the things you can for me, nor the things you want. Your trust for me has not been tarnished one bit, don't make it my fault that I can't give you what you can give me. Have whatever you want... whenever you want... just don't expect me to be there every step of the way...

Her...

If I think about her it's only because of you. If I'm angry at her it's because of the things you bring up about her. If I'm writing this it's because I can't handle the green eye monster of jealousy and envy of her. All because of you, because of your fascination and your damn need to be so wanted by so many. Just because it's you...

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Such a bitter entry... Just like me...

spark me up a romance

Without you...
 
She sits there laughing at the right jokes, pulls a face at the right bad jokes and sits there without him by her side. She feels lost, overwhelmed and unprotected without his strong arms tightly around her frame. This independence scares her, she hasn't had it for a long time. Yet, it thrills her to the edges of her skin. Without him she could be, not just anyone but anything, in a matter of moments.

Blink and you might miss her...
 
She's realising more than ever that there is more for her out there. Her life does not need to revolve around one single person other than herself. She reaches out to him because she knows he's there, she takes it all for granted because he is committed to be by her side. She doesn't want to feel that anymore. She wants to live every moment with him as if it is the first and as if it were the last. Every moment needs to count no matter the days that have swept quietly behind her.

Spark her up a romance...
 
She wants to feel the excitement of the first kiss with the comfort of every other one after that all rolled into one. She wants 'hello' to be about surprises and 'goodbye' to be full of gifts till the next time they meet again. She wants him to light the cold candle by her window sill together to light up the darkest moments in a relationship. She wants the spark not only reignited but burning full of desire.

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Us ; Three year anniversary ; 14th October 2005
Watching it go by together...

quiet rifts of uncertainty

Intolerable silences...
 
If I kept quiet, spoke silently and answered with a nod or shake of the head would you remember that I'm still here? Would you see me amongst the strangers in my life? Would you care for what has happened to me, good or bad? It seems that even you wouldn't care for even a first glance.
 
Quiet rifts of uncertainty...
 
It use to bother me, it use to drive me insane. The crave for attention, the need for affection and the unconditional care was what drove me, kept me alive. I don't need it now, and the truth is I don't want it either. I've learned that I can do without the things that you gave me. I want to be me... the me without the attachments that plagued my life.
 
Unspoken words are all I need...
 
I miss the days of old romance. I miss the ways the gentleman use to treat a lady. I miss the words that spoke eye to eye. I miss the gentle touch of the hand to cheek. I miss the kisses that drove me into passionate fits. I miss the passion you once bestowed upon me.

lie in passion

It is...
 
It's amazing how she can fall asleep in the safety of his arms. It's crazy how without him her mind plays games of defiance with her. It's wonderful how he is the one person who drives her up the wall and at the same time make her laugh at the darkest of moments.

Tuck me in...
 
She lies with eyes closed, heart calm and mind clear. She feels him watching her, the way her breathing settles, the way her lips twitch and the way her chest rises and falls. She doesn't want to move, the moment seems simply beautiful. As he tucks her in softly she feels an unimaginable presence of hope.

Lie in passion...
 
As he slides his body quietly next to hers she smiles a secret smile. He will always be here, no matter the time, no matter the day, no matter the situation. It makes her wonder how she ever got so lucky, so fulfilled and so so happy.

between uncharted territories

 The air between...

Hold a breath, watch for a moment, see the intensity that lies between. The touch of the finger tips, the delicate brush of a hand and the intimacy of the moment. The simple act of want, need, have. All together ignite the cold air between and cause a fire of passion.

The secret between every look...

It burns into her skin and into her heart. The mysterious ways that he does that to her. With one look she loses her way yet finds the one thing she is longing for. The secret that lies between every look causes her heart to skip, her mind to falter and her eyes to grow soft.

The kisses in between...

They lay a intricate path to the uncharted territories. A world only a few know, a few understand and not many have conquered. In between the passion, in between the need, in between the wants, in between the kisses there is only them.

I am yours...