despite it all.

When all seems lost you find a way...

She's glad that you chose her despite it all. It's true, she feels slightly silly. She was worried. She just wanted to make it work, happily. Was that silly at all? You're right, if it was more important you would of left already, if it was of more importance than her then you would of decided long ago that the future was bleak with her. She's glad that you eventually decided on the best for them both. It was important to her that you did, it made her realise that no matter what may happen, you will always continue to surprise her with how much you really want to be with her.

Sometimes you know her too well...

When you told her that you L her. She was afraid of what may happen. She was afraid that she would eventually disappoint you, she was scared that you expected her to say it back, she was most afraid of the fact that she was FILWY too. In the end no matter how hard she tried to avoid it, how much she didn't want to go down that road. She finds herself, 4 years on, almost LY for the rest of her life. When she told you she wasn't sure, you told her that you knew deep down that she did. Why did you have to be so right.

IFILWY...

Despite everything...