holding onto useless air.

In this little world that you have created for yourself...

You may think that when everything is in its little order that everything is perfect in your eyes. In this bubble you are in you believe that it is alright to act the way that you do. The honest truth is that its not. No one sees your world the way you do and no one cares how perfect your world may be because they don't have to live in it and fit into your criteria on how people should behave according to you. So don't be surprised when no one wants to visit you let alone live in it with you.

When it gets hard to breath because all you do is fight...

Its difficult to continuously just walk around wondering what kind of mood you are in and what kind of attitude you may project, not just on a daily basis, but on a constant basis. Doesn't it get tiring always trying to fit everything into your little world and then arguing over nothing when it doesn't fit? She's over trying to let it go every time your mood changes for some unknown reason. She's not going to just step aside to let you just walk all over people because you think that's the way it should be. If you want to fight, then be ready to fight because she's not just going to stand around anymore and let you get away with it.

Some day it will catch up to you and then you may finally understand...

I'm not worried about myself or about what you may think of me. I know what people are like and to be telling the truth I don't like people like you. You are stupid to think that I will just let you get away with it. That stupid childish actions will win the wars. The truth is that if you continue the way that you are, it's not me that you will be fighting with the the whole world. But by then its probably just too late. Think what you like, do what you think is right and be rude, stubbborn and unpleasent. In the end I won't lose out because its not me that has become that. It is yourself.

without you.

Leap far...

When she told you that she wanted to run away, she never thought you would find great heights to jump from. Some days she would take the risk and jump as far and from as high as you wanted her to so that she could just be with you no matter where she landed. Yet, those days seem far from her because your mind keeps changing so constantly. She could never jump high enough or leap far enough to satisfy your ever growing list of changes.

Great heights...

Stop asking those awkward questions that she will never have the answers to. Those 'what ifs' and 'maybes' mean nothing unless they are actually planned out and full in force. She cannot say what you want to hear in hopes that you will just stop asking those questions, because she knows that it would be wrong, no matter how much your blue eyes plead.

Emotional traps...

She knows that you'll trap her. If you haven't already. She knows the lengths that she has to go to be with you in a life that you will be happy with. Her happiness is the simplest of ones, as long as she's with you, and that's where you have her bound to you. Give her a chance to live life and not worry constantly about the future that you so desperately have missed out on. She understands the sacrifices, she understands your sacrifices and she knows that this is your way of loving life.

"I don't want to do it without you..."

That's all it takes to trap her in...

Operation; Think Happy (Pt.1)

Inspired by: Holly Homemaker

"I pledge to list 7 things that makes me happy, that makes me thankful, that makes me love life!"

1. Thinking that one day I will be emotional on the first day of the school year.
2. The smell of rain. Despite the gorgeous sunshine.
3. Kind comments from perfect strangers.
4. Holiday planning with a beautiful friend.
5. His trust in me.
6. Being shown that she is needed.
7. Creating mystery and spontaneity. 

planned forever ago.

Making her swoon and melt with just a look…

This new look he has seems to show her makes her swoon deeper and faster than before. The old actions with some old touches causes her melt rapidly. And of course the sweet whispers that he teases her with will be the complete end of her. It makes her wonder, ever so slightly, how he manages to find these new ways, mixed with the old, that cause this strange flurry of new emotions in her that are all dedicated to him. It’s something unpredicted by her but its got her where she definitely wants to be.

Holding on to her with dreams of forever…

She’s completely all for the random acts of loving her. In fact she adores it, wants it and remembers that first summer when she was young and naive all for him. Yet she knows that she is no longer that girl that she was so many years ago and that there are steps that will be taken soon that he has seemingly planned forever ago. She’s afraid and determined that what ever he asks of her, she will not say no and never falter without giving it a passionate try. But she knows that there’s a smile on her face at the end of it because she will do it all with him, and that’s the way she would always want it to be.

old romance with a dash of new fireworks.

Old fashioned light touches on her hips...

It's been such a long time since those days of nervous hugs and timid kisses. The hugs that seemed so new fitting together so effortlessly. Those touches so light and seem to explore all those untested paths. These days are now filled with certainty and unabashed affections. Sometimes the little things are forgotten along with the amount of time that seems to pass by. Sometimes new paths of uncharted territories need to be set. Sometimes its nice to just have the old romance rekindled more than for a little while. It reminds her of that summer that you taught her so much and of all the things that you learnt about her. Those emotions of whether forever is even possible and that it didn't really matter if there was a forever, just as long as there was a now because all time stood so still.

Fresh new fireworks igniting her heart...

When you reach for her it makes her feel so light hearted because it means that she is on your mind. When you place you hands so tightly on her hips it reminds her of your presence and if she leans back just a little she can feel the heat of your body against hers. When you kiss her with your eyes closed so tightly it reminds her that the only thing that you want in that one moment and only in that moment is the touch of your lips against hers. So when you put all of that together it makes her feel like those old times again, where there wasn't a second thought, that you couldn't get enough of all of it and she wouldn't believe that there was anything remotely relative to that feeling. The truth is, there really isn't after all of these years. She doesn't believe that there will ever be anything that will consume her as much as your touch.

Mix her a romance of old and new to make her melt...

Don't forget its always the smallest things that make her day, that cause her to swoon and to be reminded that after all these years you are grateful for the way things fit so well together with her. Otherwise she may forget that you are grateful, that you are happy and that you are indeed not just taking her for granted. Grab her hand when she's not looking, hug her tightly refusing to let go, kiss her when she least expects it and tell her why she's right for that forever you keep dreaming about. Some day she may forget how much you want her, how much you may adore her and how much you actually do need her if you forget to romance her in those little ways. But when you do, you make her melt, you make her smile sweeter and you most definitely remind her that beyond everything, after all these years, you are hers.