holding onto useless air.

In this little world that you have created for yourself...

You may think that when everything is in its little order that everything is perfect in your eyes. In this bubble you are in you believe that it is alright to act the way that you do. The honest truth is that its not. No one sees your world the way you do and no one cares how perfect your world may be because they don't have to live in it and fit into your criteria on how people should behave according to you. So don't be surprised when no one wants to visit you let alone live in it with you.

When it gets hard to breath because all you do is fight...

Its difficult to continuously just walk around wondering what kind of mood you are in and what kind of attitude you may project, not just on a daily basis, but on a constant basis. Doesn't it get tiring always trying to fit everything into your little world and then arguing over nothing when it doesn't fit? She's over trying to let it go every time your mood changes for some unknown reason. She's not going to just step aside to let you just walk all over people because you think that's the way it should be. If you want to fight, then be ready to fight because she's not just going to stand around anymore and let you get away with it.

Some day it will catch up to you and then you may finally understand...

I'm not worried about myself or about what you may think of me. I know what people are like and to be telling the truth I don't like people like you. You are stupid to think that I will just let you get away with it. That stupid childish actions will win the wars. The truth is that if you continue the way that you are, it's not me that you will be fighting with the the whole world. But by then its probably just too late. Think what you like, do what you think is right and be rude, stubbborn and unpleasent. In the end I won't lose out because its not me that has become that. It is yourself.

for the words that don't always fit.

The reasons that may not seem obvious to you...
 

She's tired of some of the childishness that goes on. The over bearing sick, sad, sweet proclamations that no one really needs to know or that don't really put any justice on anything at all. If it needs such proof then really are you just convincing yourself than it actually being realistic. Some things she doesn't agree on but it doesn't really get to her, its the really stupid teenage crap that gets on her nerves. She's too old to be playing games, too mature to care what goes on behind your closed doors and just plain and simply not interested. Proof is not in words that one may write but in the actions that cannot be explained because how extraordinary the actions are to yourself and only you.

The things you pretend to care about...

If its all about caring about what others want and what others feel then stop contradicting yourself and take one hard look at what you doing. Don't say that you are trying to do this and that when only in the end all your actions turn round and do not even justify what's coming out of your mouth. She's been here longer, she's been through a lot more, and this is no different than before and therefore it makes you no different from all those that were in the same spot in the past. Wonder why those who are unhappy about it all are unhappy. Maybe its the unhappiness of certain situations and the loss of a strong friendship.So before you say things and assume you know why, think again.

The parts of that will not be her problem...
 

In the end its not really her problem, she's just sad and upset that one of the things that were most important to someone she wants to protect is compromised. She knows that deep down inside that it would not be discussed because its not in their nature and eventually it will just fade away into nothing, and that's what makes it worse. She doesn't care about the things you think she cares about, in fact she's seen a lot of these things come and go and she knows that the real test is later on down the track, because every year it becomes more challenging and not everyone makes it, something not even the strongest of people can get past. So choose your words wisely about the people that care for who you care about because you may be destroying things that are important in someone else's life deliberately. She doesn't care about the overall picture and if that makes her less of a friend than so be it, but she does care about some of the friendships you can categorie however you think you wish. Every friendship has a mark of its own, its not up to you to choose which one deserves which mark.